crashed memoirs...

in a flash

of a second

my laptop...

 

just died

 one minute it's working

the next nothing

for a brief moment

i was in a panic

realizing the last

backup was several

months ago

i've been writing

often lately

as in late in the night

bearing my soul

to the black shiny dell

a surprise gift

 for my fiftieth birthday

then i remembered

the last time a computer

crashed the data was

restored

 so i decided

to pack it up

and take it in for service

last night
 the tech called

my laptop failed

the hard drive crashed

data lost

gone forever

unless i want to spend

a thousand or more

and send it off to

a data recovery source

i wanted to cry

instead

 i confirmed i would

pick it up

as i clung to the

inanimate piece

of plastic tonight

i was comforted to know

it now secretly held

some of my darkest moments

my late night rants

my seventeen chapter

memoir

the one the publisher was

interested in

until i decided it

was not ready for

publication

at least not yet

maybe never

and that's when it hit me

this system crash

just maybe

 it was meant

to be

it's time to tightly close

that chapter in my life

let it go

what is

 was meant to be

what's not
 isn't worth the worry

the future is tomorrow

a new beginning

deserving of a brand new

hard drive

just waiting for

fresh ideas