Sunday, September 23, 2012

flight of a bumble bee...

there is a certain
undefinable
excitement i feel...
.


...when the first signs
of autumn appear
the days are still filled
with sunshine
although there
is a slight chill
 in the air
i spent the afternoon
walking
down a trail
enjoying
the changing elements
of nature
while my youngest son
crouched and ducked
in the woods
with his friends
dodging
 paintball pellets
i closely followed
the flight
of this bumble bee
as it would forage about
 from flower
 to purple plower
in search of nectar and pollen
i suppose
the more i observed
i was reminded
how fast paced our life
can be
if only i would take
more moments
to simply watch
 and observe
the more grateful
 i would be
for the amazement
yet complexity
of our creator's plan
 it is all around us
even
in the flight
of the bumble bee

Sunday, September 16, 2012

gifts...

when an ultrasound
suggested
our third child...
.
 
...was likely a boy
our oldest son
asked to name him
a scary proposition
as one of my friends
had also just been through this
and her son's choice
for his soon to be little brother
was alfalfa
still i trusted
 the wisdom of our
eight year old
he chose matthew richard
the middle name i understood
 completely
it was after my father
the first name
came out of nowhere
so i looked up the meaning
gift of god
is what i found
sounded logical
as i believe all children
are gifts
today i had the pleasure of
spending the entire afternoon
with the now teenager
we shopped
for shirts and ties and suits
we dined at panera
his suggestion
we drove around
with him at the wheel
we talked
we reminisced
we connected
it hasn't always been like this
there were days
in the early years that
i would truthfully have
entertained returning
the gift
he was challenging
full of spit and fire
and then one day i recognized
it was partly my fault
he did not have my
entire heart
it was intertwined in anger
full of self doubt
it was living in a state
of denial
i was too concerned about
my fantasy of what
i thought life should be
rather than living
in the here and now
i had to first love myself
before i could expect him to
i had to get rid of the
negative energy swirling
around our life
i worked hard at that
thankfully
i openly shared my journey with
my husband
and found he too had arrived
at the same place
at about the same time
we worked together
as a team
as a couple
each time we plateaued
 divine intervention
would take over
threatening phone calls
came into our lives
at just the right time
untruthful letters arrived
that made us start over
just as we thought
conclusions had been reached
a nasty email was opened
which made us dig even deeper
and with
each mile of the journey
each step of the way
it was matthew
who grew right beside us
as our hearts became whole
so too did his
as positive energy
replaced the negative
so too did his
behavior change
as our souls became
spiritually driven
so too did his
i recognized today
as i held his hand
as i looked into his eyes
as i watched him interact
with those around him
that he truly is a
gift from god
i am grateful beyond words
for his patience
for his love
for giving me an even greater gift
that of forgiveness
for it is that which
truly opens your heart
to the possibilities of living

Friday, September 14, 2012

he makes house calls...

imagine this
a doctor
who still...
.

...comes to the house
sure hope he can
diagnose
and patch up our
wounded johns
seriously
a fourth generation plumber
in mayfield hts
came highly recommended
by a fellow quilter
i trust my stitchy friends
so we brought him in
honest beyond belief
clean and efficient
job well done
we're back in flushing order
now about that
leaking skylight...

Friday, September 7, 2012

making progress...

and it
feels
so good...
.
 
...absolutely love
 the moment
when you turn it over
and see all 
four quadrants
stitched together
seams lined up
colors working
squared to perfection
ready now
 to tackle
the miniature white border
and the pieced
outer border

Thursday, September 6, 2012

oh fiddlesticks...

not entirely sure
where
that expression...
.
 
...came from
but it seems most appropriate
for the exact moment
when you
think you are done
and
ready for the next step
only to realize
you've made a mistake
and a few seams
will need
to come out

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

birds & berries...

today was
one of
those days...
.
 
...that my mind and body
were craving
the motion of sitting
 at the machine
with the motor humming
it's a peaceful
and relaxing position
started a new
 project today
another schnibble
the newest
by lauren + jessi jung
a mother/daughter team
i seem to be partial to those
types of duos

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

the beautiful future...

i believe
the children
are our future...
.
adam, maria, julie & tj
...teach them well 
 and let them lead the way 
show them all the beauty 
 they possess inside 
give them a sense of pride 
 to make it easier... 
thoughtful lyrics by the
late whitney houston
play over in my mind
as i had the privilege
 of spending
the weekend with these
four amazing and delightful
human beings
they are our future
male cousins by blood
friends for life
with their soul mates
divinely and spiritually driven
to make a difference
moving forward with the best
of intentions
with the love and support of
their families
so very grateful
to be able to share
in their lives