no creations...

this blog

is supposed to

be about...

.

...creations

my creations

but lately it has been

more about family

and friends

and

chocolate

so i decided i best

confess

and show you why

it's a mess

a somewhat organized mess

but still a mess

my little ole creative corner

is always the go to room

for all the stuff

gathered in other rooms

where repair is needed

even my design board

 is down

so the work crew has access

 to

the electrical panels

sigh

maybe tomorrow

we can start the clean up

at least i won't need buckets

for the task

for which i am grateful

oh heavenly bliss...

how

i adore

thee...

.

...extra smooth & creamy

melt in your mouth

pure milky ecstasy

thank you hershey

for thinking

outside the bar

 for selecting

 purple foil

for selling

the experience

pure bliss

happy healing

to the

one and only

blogzilly...

.

...the best blogging

 man i know

if i were to send you

popsicles

these would be

the ones i'd make

they somehow

look like something

you'd create

grape for me

apple for you

for that's the flavor

i'm sure you'd

like to see

now that you're tonsil free

happy healing ken

now please

don't over do it

man creations

it's the first

day of school

for the youngest

.

...which means the

obligatory photo

 in front of the house

must be taken

the oldest just happened

to be walking by

so i pulled him in too

as i was uploading

the pictures

it hit me

with a little surprise

those are my guys standing there

two handsome men

the greatest of creations

time sure does fly by

yet the rewards just

get better each and every day

i am one lucky mom

so proud

and so very grateful

moving right along...

today

was my very

last...

.

high school

freshman orientation

the last time

 i will walk

 the halls of the school

with my child 

new schedule in hand

searching for rooms

trying to figure out

how to get

 from one wing

to the other

in the allotted time frame

that task may be harder

for this last child

the halls are filled

during class change

with girls

i expect that might make

for some tardy slips

the smiles he gets

and gives

are worth it all

this kid enjoys

life and for that

i am grateful

and living

 my last high school

experience

through his twinkling eyes

not if...rather when...

i'd been warned

there were signs

still it was hard...

...bifocals

 i heard him say

ouch

if that's not

a reminder

of getting older

actually

they are now called

varilux physio

that sounds better

soon i spotted

these

purple retro ray bans

just like louis lane

my honey

he needs them too

he picked black ones

just like clark kent

what a pair

 we will be

one awesome year...

today

we

celebrated...

.

...one full year of

 jellen's

going from one

 tiny little design studio

with a small stash of

purple fabric

to

one not as tiny little house

with a larger stash of

purple fabric

how nice of moda

to send us

 amelia

on our

anniversary

a girl can brag...

once or twice

in her

life right?...

.

...especially on the

celebration

of her twenty fifth

wedding anniversary

the one where

the hubby presented

his bride

that would be me

with a

matching set of

purple

and gold bling

so artfully designed

oh yes that

i believe is worthy of

a kiss or two or twenty five...

.

and a mention on this here blog

the one declaring my love

of all things

purple

and my love for you

 dear john

for 25 years

our love has made

each day better

every moment is happier

any challenge is easier

and it's why i know

that there's nothing

we can't accomplish together

with every anniversary

we celebrate

our love grows stronger

and i feel more grateful

to be married

to someone as

wonderful as you

happy 25th anniversary

to the man i love

the answers...

...were here all along

in the bottom

drawer of the big...

.

green file cabinet

tucked in the furthest

corner of the basement

the timing of the need

to replace the furnace

requiring moving

  the file drawers

could not have been

more perfect

the last piece of closure

to the pain

 of the past twenty five years

as i poured through the folders

i found things i had

never seen before

or at least don't remember

maybe that was intentional
my high school diploma
from the real glenoak

my graduate school transcripts

from ohio state

the awards i received

the leadership positions i held
job descriptions

my husband's college diplomas

a rebuttal to his first professional

performance review

my dissolution papers

our apartment lease

my acceptance letter to law school

the condo mortgage and deed

ahh the wedding file

which held lists and lists
not one including shari

and more lists

there were more revisions

than the white house

 has for state dinners i'm sure

in the end

most were not invited

it was a small event

not what i envisioned

 but it was easier that way

hindsight being double twenty

pause

this is where

 the recovery begins

or rather ends

i would have taken back the night

not let it nearly destroy us

rather run

sprint for a destination

the rockies, the desert, the beach

but then again

maybe it was all it

 was suppose to be

perhaps it played out

exactly as it was planned

preparing us for what

was to come

there are parts of the drama

that have not changed

not in twenty five plus years

yet the commitment

the love

have endured

bonded beyond measure

and that strength

was developing

from those first months

of that time so

many years ago

life is too short

to wallow in misery

i've read everything

in the file drawer

shredded the things

i'll never need again

never want to see again

i know the past year

 or so has been

 truly the happiest

of my life

in just a few hours

i am taking back the night

i am about to

 marry the man

 of my dreams

all over again

this time
there are no lists

no drama

no dress, no flowers, no dinner

just a man

and a woman

recommitting to love and to cherish

till death do us part